| Winter Concert |
[Dec. 1st, 2006|01:34 pm] |
Bakersfield College Chorale and Chamer Singers'
Annual Holiday Concert
Featured selections include the Men of the Chorale performing "Puer Natus Est" a traditional Gregorian chant, the Women of the Chorale singing the seasonal classic "Panis Angelicus," the World Premier of Dr. John Allen Gerhold's newest work "Race Against the Moon," the three movements of Daniel Pinkham's "Christmas Cantata."
Also, the Chamber Singers will feature David Maddux's "Christmas Goes Classical." Maddux puts his own whimsical spin on classic pieces such as Verdi's "Anvil Chorus," Tchikovsky's "1812 Overture," and Strauss' "Also Sprach Zarathustra." A powerful and fun piece to demonstrate the wonderful talents of the singers.
Tickets are $10 at the Door ($5 for students, faculty and seniors)
Performance begins at 8pm
Held at First Presbyterian Church
Happy Holidays! |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 13th, 2006|02:25 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | madonna - confessions album | ] |
idk what the fuck im doing
i go to school. i miss classes like a third of the time. save for my music classes that dont really matter. choir, chamber singers, voice, piano, psychology, into to auto. and its "full-time" at 12 units which hasnt happened in a year and a half. this is my 4th semester (skipped last spring) at BC and by units im still a freshmen. i didnt even master shit like enrolling and paying for classes until my second year. ive dropped and added and changed so much shit that i can do it with my eyes closed!
"Waaaaaah, I don't know what I wanna be when I grow up! Join the fuckin' Army or something!" - Waiting
i would never join the service just bcz i dont think i could make it. and other reasons but anyways....
its sort of like how ive become with church. im one of those who is Christian only on Sundays yknow and then during the week goes back to other ways that go against church/God. i go to school and leave it all there. i know i have homework but i dont always do it let alone want to do it. like anybody actually wants to right? im starting to get involved again tho. did practice and a mass at St. Phil's today. we have mass again next sunday. started back up with the adult choir at St. Francis. gotta do xmas midnight mass! i guess Fr. Craig wanted me back so much that he was willing to pay for some of my classes. :-\ i absoloutely cant let the money doesnt go to waste if he decides to sponsor me. and Susan (the director) still wants me to cantor some masses regularly by myself as a sort of job. ive done it before....
idk how long i will do Joyful Noise (st. phil) tho. ive been with them for almost 12 years. i grew up with some of them. but there have been so many changes that im not willing to go along with for much longer unless things improve.
[end church side stories and attempts to get back on subject]
on paper im a music major. and i love singing. i love being in choir (even tho this year's has discipline problems) and i would love to pursue voice hard core but the longer im here, the less i think its for me. i think CalArts totally broke my spirit when i didnt get accepted 2 yrs ago. BC was my only fall-back school bcz, like a dumb ass, i didnt apply anywhere else. so my ass has to go to shitty Bakersfield Community College w/o a fuckin clue.
but now im even worse off. i dont feel like i have a direction anymore. a goal i want to achieve. not even a career choice. and i Hate all of these gen-ed bullshit requirements to make you "a well-rounded individual". thats why i wanted to go to a conservatory in the first place. that way i wouldnt have to deal with all the bullshit. i could get an awesome education in a focused setting with peers that i can learn from. but i guess it turns out that im not so great. i dont have spectacular talent like others. i didnt grow up with theory or even learn to really read music til the very end of high school. in band i stopped getting spoon-fed my part by an accompanist to have it repeated back my memory. i had to actually read the music on my own - WHAT A CONCEPT!
BC hasnt been a complete waste of time. but it might as well have been. Dr. Kean (my choral director / somewhat mentor) has taught me a lot about using my voice. ive become sooo much better than i used to be when i auditioned for CalArts. my sight reading ...... has come into existance heh. we'll leave it at that. idk if that means that if i were to audition again that i would actually get in. and by the slim chance that i Do get in, where am i gonna get all that money? thats a fuckin huge loan right there.
what am i gonna do? try and get a decent grade in my psychology class bcz right now thats the only class that really matters right now. my auto class is a joke. i think there is such thing as TOO MUCH hands on learning. i doubt there will even be a final. i need to learn to treat the choirs as what they are: extracurricular activities. piano is pretty easy. just takes practicing. same with voice. "Largo al factotum della oitta" from The Barber of Seville will be fun when its ready for performance in a couple weeks. .... i need private voice.
i need a fuckin clue. |
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| Reno Trip 1 of 3 |
[Nov. 7th, 2006|02:14 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Bakersfield College | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  bitchy but not sure why | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | BPM on XM Radio Online | ] |
after going to target for a few things like chapstick and soaps, i left bako at quarter-to-6 on friday night. traffic was still horrible as usual for the couple hrs of rush hour up the 99 freeway. i got stuck behind this tour bus for a little bit that was, for whatever reason, driving down the fast lane. when the Best Tours bus finally got over i quickly sped into my lane to get ready to plow through the next driver who is going too slow in the fast lane.as i got close to fresno, i called Adam to let him know im near so he can give me the key to the apt. and the parking pass to the game. turns out he had left the KKY meeting to go help Mom at the Central High game after all. so i just went traight there. the parking lot was full as usual. lots of people had parked on the street to avoid the $3 fee. he called me as i stepped out of the car to find out where i was which was behind the snack bar. :-) so he met me out front for a big bear hug. it was SOO good to see him again. after a pass flash to the security gaurd, we got straight to work inside.
i mostly filled sodas all night. for two windows. there were only three open as opposed to the 4 that were open my first night volunteering there. it was really good to see Mom (Theresa) and Dad (Chip) again too. i guess Jacob was out back with Dad for the grill. it was a crisp 50 degrees outside but felt good by the hamburgers on the grill. tri-tip was down to slim pickings as i had arrived at the middle of the second quarter. i still cant say if its good or not bcz ive never gotten a chance to try any. i do know that it smelled divine! its always fun to get back into the snack bar work. but i couldnt go back to a regular job of it like at Pacific Theatres. my back wouldnt be able to take it. it could barely take it from that one night of work. after the new stadium was empty and both snack bars were cleaned up, we had some birthday cake for...... someone. this older man whose name completely escaped me after it was said. me not liking chocolate tho, had an ice cream sandwich lol. Dad told me i could stay at the house tonight if i didnt feel like driving across town. i thought long and hard about it and decided to stay there. what was i gonna say? <i>oh, no thanks. thats alright. Adam and me had planned on sleeping together tonight. so ill just see ya in the morning!</i> ya, that would go over well with Mom there. i figured i would have to be back at 6a anyways so why not get a little more sleep out of it? so i accepted and then called Adam to kina break it to him. he said it was whatever i wanted to do bcz he wasnt gonna get out of the KKY Activity until a lot later (it was already 1130p when we finished up at Central). so it was one more night sleeping alone for us.
as i laid on the couch in the dark at the Hagans' house, i was astonished at myself that i was confortable enough with them (as they were with me) to sleep there. it was a really good feeling. i woke up about 345a tho as Jacob and his friend Joe? came home from some party. he didnt sound drunk. but i heard him bragging about getting a BJ bcz Joe had asked about it. !?!??!??! is that wat straight boys talk about?? idk. i just tried to get back to sleep. Dad woke me up at 530 so i could take a shower and pack up to be ready to leave to meet everybody else out in Kerman. in my zombie state, i was ready in 10 minutes, showered and all! Adam showed up about quarter-to-six followed by Dad's friend Eddie who was going too. once Mom's chipper, cherry self (lol) was up we headed out. stopped at a gas station for the important stuff for the ride to Reno: chips and gummy bears! lol Adam and me didnt even get anything to drink! we were still half asleep (as we were for the entire Saturday). at this church just north of Kerman, we met up with the rest of the guys from the Kerman Community Band who were going on the trip and our bus. :-o it was the bus i got stuck behind on the way up! eerie.... Apparently it was a brand new bus right off the line, picked up last night before its trip up to Fresno. |
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| Fri - Let's Get it Started |
[Oct. 12th, 2006|09:19 pm] |
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| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  *cough cough*....*COUGH COUGH* | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | Frasier Se.1 - "The Show Where Lilith Comes Back" | ] |
friday i was soo axious. i couldnt wait for Adam to get here. he was really, really scared to see my parents again. they've only met once and it was Adam coming down to watch me sing at Mass. we got back to my place when my parents got home from their anniversary trip to Vegas. *sarcasm* what a perfect time for them to meet! */sarcasm* My dad was kina pushing for the familia to have dinner with him. Adam ended up leaving fresno a couple hrs later than he had wanted bcz he had to get his brake pads replaced by his bro Jacob. Jake is great with cars. hes trying to get back in to Wyotech up north. i think he would do really well there if he gets his act together. so Adam ended up gettin to the house at 4ish. my mom warmed up some of that great pizza from vons. it was kina burned from the oven. good nontheless. ended up staying longer than either of us thought we should (just bcz of traffic down to LA), but it still didnt seem like Adam got to spend enough time with my parents. theyre great with him and they like him and everything but it seems that they still havent completely embraced him like his parents have with me. after a great talk with his dad during the football game, i feel much more comfortable and accepted with them. but hes still really nervous around my parents and doesnt feel as though they like him. i think if they got to spend more time with him that he would definately feel better about them. it took me some trips up and visits to the parents' house to get comfortable. im sure when he does the same, all will be even better.
traffic down wasnt bad. we hit LA after all the going-home rush. arrived at the resort at about 7 or 8? after getting lost just trying to find the parking LOT we walked over in the cool, beautiful night to Downtown Disney. we didnt see much red-shirt wearers yet, but they didnt need shirts for you to tell lol. Adam was really excited to see the Lego store lol. it was really cute. he was in heaven. we passed by the house of blues and the southern food place where they were having the Gay Days dinners, dances and such. we skipped all that stuff bcz 1) im not of age :-( and B) we didnt have the money for it. we barely had enough to get there and be ok. we got to see a little bit of the nightly fireworks show from downtown disney. after it was over we made our way into the world of disney. its a HUUUGe disney store right before the park entrance. saw these really neato drumsticks that were all acryllic, clear plastic. as i got closer, i saw that they actually light up when they are struck on something! thats awesome!! but me being me decided to wait and see what else i could spend my money on before i go buying everything i thought was cool. Adam, on the other hand, was a man on a mission. he was sent down with money to buy gifts for new littles in KKY. he searched like a hawk thru every store we went to lol for a "big Tinkerbell", aaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnd...... i dont remember what else he was looking for specifically. i DO remember he always had an eye out for Princess ..... the little Indian princess from Peter Pan. Princess Mononoke or something. idk. he was all disappoined in my lack of Disney knowledge tho lol. it got a bit late and the park attendees had all pretty much cleared out. shops were all beginning to close so we headed back to the car (i wished so much that he would hold my hand!) and headed to our cozy holiday inn round the corner. we had no trouble checking in bcz my dad had already called earlier in the day to confirm that i was gonna be the one to check in. we got shuttle times from the front desk and headed to our room. we finally went to bed about 1230a. i couldnt remember if the park opened the next day at 8a or at 10a. it didnt matter. we'll just wake up when we wake up. (which was about 830a when my alarm went off lol) but neither of us could care a bit. we were too happy just curled up i bed, falling asleep together. |
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| i should go to bed now.... |
[Oct. 6th, 2006|12:03 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  anxious to see Adam/Disneyland | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | *in my head* savage garden - to the moon and back | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|08:12 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | anxious to see Adam/Disneyland | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | *in my head* blaque - 808 | ] |
*saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaafety* |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 23rd, 2006|12:25 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  i love Adam | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | *in my head* one way or another.... | ] |
zomg pwnage!!!!
KYLE: We are very excited to release what is going to be the longest episode yet. Episode 12 will end the first season of Pure Pwnage.
* Internet release - Monday Nov 6th 1:00pm PST |
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| *avoiding studying for psyc exam* |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|12:13 am] |
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| interesting. kool. |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|04:36 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  i miss adam..... and im hungry | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | black eyed peas - wheres the love | ] |
Episcopal priest blesses Arkansas gay union
published Monday, September 18, 2006
An Episcopal priest who was the first to bless a gay couple in Arkansas says it was not his intent to be the first at anything but rather to recognize two men who "discovered God's presence in a redeeming, life-giving way" over the past 15 years.
The Rev. Ed Wills, the pastor at St. Michael's in West Little Rock, blessed the relationship of Ted Holder and Joe van den Heuvel on Saturday night in a service before approximately 200 people.
The Right Reverend Larry Maze, bishop of the 55 congregations in the Episcopal diocese of Arkansas, in July authorized blessings for same-sex couples. Seven other dioceses have written policies for the practice, while others haven't formalized the process.
"I just wanted the sign of the cross made over our relationship," Holder said. Van den Heuvel added, "It's good to be somewhere where you can feel the love of other people and to be honest about yourself. It just felt good and right."
Holder, 53, and Van den Heuvel, 50, were raised in other Protestant congregations (Holder a Methodist and Van den Heuvel, Dutch Reformed) and became Episcopalians shortly after they met, seeking a more formal liturgy.
The pair said they joined St. Michael's after leaving another Episcopal congregation that wouldn't consider blessing their relationship. (AP)
Copyright 2006 Associated Press. |
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| im bringin sexy back |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|08:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Adam's room | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  thirsty / hungry | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | "tekno" playlist from external HHD | ] |
i finally have all my music situated on this lappy! made my enormous "tekno" play list. im so freakin tired. i couldnt sleep on that bed. i think it was too soft. we stayed the night at his aunt and uncle's house bcz hes dog-sitting. i didnt think dogs could be more spoiled than my aunt mary's! these are spoiled as hell. theyre cute tho. good pups. we were in bed and Casey (little white one whos back hurts) crawled up beside Adam to snuggle and i was like excuse you!! thats MY man. apparently Casey (girl) like loves Adam to death. Bea is kool. little ball of fluff. after disneyland, i should buy one of those external HDs that doesnt need aux power. one of those 100G ones would be nice. Adam bought a gig stick on a lanyard. he looks really cute in it. irrisistable! lol
im SOOO avoiding doing my psyc paper. i may just use that 'coupon' she gave us to get out of an assignment free. i would rather go thru my auto book. but even more so, i would rather be in a practice room learning my music. i dont wanna have to solfege everything. that would suck.
it was freezing this morning. AND last night. last night was awesome tho. i arrived, put my stuff down and we hung out with lindsey til we had to go to Kerman. Adam's community band was playing out there for their annual harvest festival. it was like a full blown carnival. he was screaming out the high notes bcz it was just him and this old kool guy (Buddy i think) on trumpet. his dad Chip was playing bass drum. it was a tiny little bad but they were good. i actually chatted with his mom while they were playing. it was odd and great at the same time. more uncomfortable than anything tho heh. his dad paid for dinner. Adam got mexican while rents and me got rotary club food: philly cheese, itlalian sausage. it was tasty, tasty. then Chip and Teresa had to head home bcz he had work at like 3 this morning. 0.0 ya... Chip reached out to shake my hand and then gave me a hug. it was a bit awkward but i was just like wow. theyre really coming around.... or hes just had a few too many lol. once we arrived, he offered me a beer which i politely turned down :-D Adam just stared busting up laughing and his dad's like What?! hes not old enough to drink! oh....*shrugs*anyways they left and we walked around the carnival booths for a few minutes before Adam said we had to go bcz he still had to meet with Megan(?) to get budget done for counsel. ok.... :( so we went to one of the booths to get these fries that looked omg delicious and a moon pie and then left. yes, they were stupendous! fresh out of the fryer. with pappy's. omg pwnage. the entire night was beautiful. it all made me think of Arvin's wildflower festivals. those were awesome. stupid new mayors.
this was kina all over the place in terms of chronological order. sry bout that. i was just excited to talk about it and still tired. at least my eyes arent red anymore. they were when we got outta bed this morn. im soo freakin hungry but idk if i just want something to drink like coffee from the senseo machine here or a BREAKFAST breakfast or what! when i get hungry enuf ill decide lol |
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| waiting for THE CALL..... |
[Sep. 3rd, 2006|09:16 am] |
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| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | *in my head* some song off KDUV..... | ] |
to go to work. might get it. might not. hopefully they dont call and i can hang out today like i said i could. hopefully they do call and i work :( and get time an a half for it later :).
i really need the money. i want Adam and my trip to disneyland to be awethom3. i love him so much. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 23rd, 2006|11:06 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Adam's room | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  very happy! | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | *in my head* song on BPM - what a feeling | ] |
hey peeps. i took off to fresno to see you know who! :-D im soo happy to just BE here. watching band camp is great! i soo wish i could be marching with them lol. you dont know how bad i wanted to strap on some quints and learn drill. the snares warmups sounded real easy too. idk. watever. i jst watch on the sideline. dum de dum. its GREAT to see everyone again too!! otay. im off. |
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| Camping Trip day 2 (cont.) |
[Aug. 23rd, 2006|11:25 am] |
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| [ | the jam |
| | XM81-BPM-Christina Aguilera - aint no other man (rmx) | ] |
.....there were a ton of people. it kind of resembled a packed beach. people had outdoor furniture, umbrellas, towels to lay on, a few ice chests. apparently it was 'the place to be.' the Slicks turned out to be a lot smaller than i thought. like a LOT smaller. i was expecting something like what we climed down to go to the pool would be the equivalent of one of the slides but they were only about ......10ft high? and not steep at all. but a good enough incline to slide down. BUT another thing city boys like me didnt know was that you need to bring trash bags to slide down so you dont get cut up by the ROCK that youre sliding down. we came up to them and in true tour guide status Adam pointed out and announced "these are the Slicks!" a bit disappointed, i led to keep exploring the area more huge dry rocks to lounge on right beside beautiful flowing water. it was like you couldnt even SEE the water it was so clear. we then found the rock he used to jump off of into the water. it was a good 15, 20ft ? above the water. and the water below went down a suprising 6ft! you could see people walking right next to where the others were jumping in! and im like WTF? Adam explained that once you hit the water and curl up into a ball, youre all good. you might touch the bottom but no harm done. i was too chicken to take the plunge and Adam wasnt up for it either. a vague existance of what he remembers. so we went back over to the big lounge rocks. put our towels and such up on this big rock that i was suprised no one had claimed yet. and i lay in the flowing water on a rock in the sun. just to relax. it was ............ just....... wonderful. while i was out for the count, Adam went over to laugh at the silly straight boys go down the Slicks for their first time. and i just lay there. embracing the (also freezing but refreshing) water. i had my bulldog hat on top of my face bcz the sun was like pointed directly at me. later i saw a shadow creep up my way and figured Adam had come back to try to scare me. when i saw the shadow lunge my way i took off the had to let him know i wasnt scared and got a face full of water chucked at me! lol he was ROLLLIN and i just kina sat there like "yup... you got me babe lol" we headed back up to the parking lot and made another leisurely drive back to camp. i was still in awe at how beautiful the forest was. which is why i was driving so slowly. it was soo great just to spend time with him. alone. our phones got NO service :-D. there was nowhere we had to be (cept for dinner at R'v and Leslie's campsite). but that wasnt til like 7 so we had like 4 hrs. we had nothing really planned on what we would do while camping. we just did whatever we felt like. "well theres _______" "SURE, lets do that!" lol we got back to camp, out of our wet clothes and took a nap. a much needed nap after waking up at that ungodly hour. we woke up, cleaned up ;-) and headed over to R'v and Leslie's. had some cider (omg cider!!) that really helped my throat. i guess being in freezing water all day and then staying outside while it gets cold isnt such a good idea - who knew!? i didnt get sick but i had a bit of a cough. we played apples to apples. R'v was so proud of all the new gear they got after the wedding. they had some kool stuff tho. lol Mike Wizowski the giant pet flashlight lol. it was this huuuge light like seriously a foot in diameter and was bright as hell. they called it Mike Wizowski bcz it was this little one-eyed monster of a light lol. and they never once referred to it as a flashlight. "hun, will you hand me Mike Wizowski?" "put Mike Wizowski back in his box!!" lmao hilarity ensued with more apples to apples and good times were had by all. we headed back to our camp. it was something like 11p. a couple times we turned off the light to walk down the paved path in pitch black. it was creepy and fun at the same time. we clung to each other lol. it was great. we went strait to bed dead tired this time.
woke up and took advantage of the firewood we had bought at the shop. just sat together talking near the fire. after it burned out we packed everything up in the car - ready to go. we had lunch and said goodbye to his aunt kim, uncle and cousin. then made our way back to fresno. the forest was beautiful at night but breathtaking during the day! again driving as slow as possible to take it all in lol. soo great. |
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| Camping Trip day 2 |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|01:22 am] |
so we both wake up. slept pretty good. we just lay in the tent cuddling all cutsy-like lol. it was nice. for the first time ever, we woke up w/o the screaming alarm nxt to the bed. i think we even fell back to sleep. idk. but we finally got dressed and headed down the hill to his aunt and uncle's shop. we realized it was only lik 8.30. !!!!!!!!!lol!!!!!!!!!! we were good tho. just meant we had more day to use. got some coffee (nummy!) and i watched some news. i never watch the news so everything that comes on is like woah, really?? when did that happen heh. and Adam ended up behind the counter like he thought he would; serving coffee and helping customers :D he was cute in his "food service mode." after we finished our coffee (and the crowd died down) we headed down this road that, i guess, leads to this other camp across the creek. but we just went as far as the bridge. it was there that i got my first taste of the REAL beauty that is Dinkey Creek. seeing the water in the creek, the open area of rocks and trees, and the Huge, aged, wooden bridge..... it was just gorgeous! like just driving up there for that would have been totally worth it. we then headed back to camp and just chilled for a while. had some cereal and little snacks and were like screw it - lets just EAT. like have lunch yknow. so we ened up firing up the george forman grill (i didnt know they made a george forman propane bbq grill......pwnage!) and after my grilled cheese lol we threw on some hot dogs. cleaned up everything and headed for Honeymoon Pools. i guess they werent how he remembered at all. but, again, it was spectacular in my eyes. when we finally found the trail to the pool, we headed down the rock stairs. it totally felt like going down to the hot springs in kern canyon. (havent been there in a while. hopefully theyre not flooded anymore) but this was a bit steeper. not bad tho. the water was freeeeeeeeeezing cold. luckily we had our nifty water shoes that we bought at the store. theyre soo fuggin awesome! i wear them all the time now lol. i love these shoes so much. Adam's pair are kina small on him tho bcz the biggest they had was 11. but the whole time, we didnt slip on a rock once. cept when we were stupid and werent paying attention lol. i got in the water in phases lol bcz it was so cold. even just putting my feet in was like ....... shocking lol. as i did so, the two guys that got there before us were jumping in! our jaws dropped. there was no way we were gonna do that lol. "silly straight boys....." lol. i sat down on this little dam-type of barrier that naturally regulated the water flow into the pool. again freezing. but once all my lower body went numb lol i went further out on a rock under the water. i got about stomach down and was about to go to an even lower rock to get deeper in the water. but i slipped and went all the way in!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH FREEEEEZING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Adam just laughed. lol. then i was like screw it and i went in and swam a bit. Adam was about knee-deep and a ton of people came. but he wasnt about to go any further in. :-p after swimming for a while and getting scared of the darkness in the middle of the pool lol we left and drove further down where the road ends to go to "the slicks." he described them as these sort of water slides and i was like hells ya!! sounds like fun! there were a TON of people......................... |
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| Camping Trip day 1 |
[Aug. 15th, 2006|09:36 am] |
Friday:
omfg stress!! im doing laundry and trying to pack and talk to Adam about stuff and get everything together. while periodically going to check the mail to see if my bloody money has arrived. 4 o clock comes around and im all packed and ready to go like i could get in teh car and leave any time but my check still wasnt here. i go back once more to see, but its still not there FUCKING mail bitch!!! our mail is supposed to come everyday at like 1030 in the morning but it never comes until anywhere from 3-6 which is totall bullshit. so im like screw it! im giong over to kern FEDeral (an account my parents made for me when i was young that i recently found out about. i took out some money to buy a few things needed for our camping trip to Dinkey Creek up by shaver lake.) bcz i kno im not gonna get my check or be able to make it thru the freakin line at kern schools (my primary bank) so my plan was to go to the bank for some money, stop at target in fresno bcz i still needed water and a couple other things. i get to white Ln and realize FUCK!!! i dont have the account number. i took out money earlier for stuff from this account and took the account summary (that comes in the mail) and the reciept to the shredder so my parents dont freak out about me taking money out (that im going to replace once i cash my check) but now im freaking out bcz i cant get any money!! so i went back home and asked my sis if the mail had come ...she didnt know, she was cooking dinner. i still hadnt eaten at all that day. didnt feel that hungry either. so i get the key and go back out to the mailbox. she HAD to have come while iwas gone. if not i'll-- FUCK!! its STILL not here!!! wat am i gonna do/!?!?! go back inside and freak out for a bit then go in the hall closet and get some money from the car insurance. ill just pay it back when i get back home and get my check. i leave a note on my keyboard to remind myself when i get home and for my parents to see if they freak. i took 60. should be enuf. then i get on my way. after the usual retarded 5 oclock traffic leaving bako to the north that pisses me off so bad i get a txt from adam saying he forgot to get water. i told him i would handle it bcz he had a lot of stress too and i could just pick it up wheni go to target b4 i get to his place. go to target. go to adam's. once he opens the door i like jumped at him and put my arms around him. it was SOO good to be holding each other agian. it seemed like forever! after a couple trips down to my car we were all packed and ready to go! stopped at his work to get the reservation papers (his boss was still there! it was like 7 already) then went to go put gas at the PACKED AMPM on bullard and THEN we were off. the road we took to get out of town was very, very simliar to the 178 out to lake ming. or commanche from the 58. then i started getting darker and going thru the mountains felt like 178 thru the canyon like on the way to the hot springs. it was great driving it! the air was sweet and cool. the trees smelled very nice. the stars were out above. we finally came to the campgrounds and took a wrong turn that led us to R'v (Adam's big) and leslie's (brand new wife) site. we said our hellos and gnites and headed to ours. all we got out of the car was the tent blankets and clothes. we set up the tent with only a flashlight and lantern. took longer than when i did it at home lol but we were fine. the site was pretty small compared to all the other ones we had seen. Adam then noticed that the ppl next to us had taken up a lot of our space which pretty much cut ours in half i think. the ground was pretty uneaven. not dirty. it was just the two of us so i didnt think anything of it. he was a little pissed but soon got over it. we were tired as dogs so just went to bed. freezing lol. |
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| Your LiveJournal and You |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|02:54 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  satisfied | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | the creak of the ceiling fan | ] |
By Lore Sjöberg |  Also by this reporter
02:00 AM Jun, 14, 2006
Do you have what it takes to create a LiveJournal? Well, ask yourself this question: Are you able to put words together? Not in complete, grammatical sentences, mind you. Are you able to take a word and another word and place them one after each other? Then you're set!
Still, if you want your LiveJournal to contain more than two words, you may want a little push in the right direction. Here are some simple LiveJournal guidelines.
Do take quizzes. The best quizzes are the ones that tell you what you are. You fill out a bunch of questions and find out that you're Adm. Adama or Princess Daisy or a crowbar. This is important because not only do they fill space -- your main goal as a LiveJournalist -- but how can anyone know the real you unless they understand that of all the Pokémon, you're Charizard?
Do create your own personalized icon. It's easy to do; just take a screenshot from your favorite movie or TV show and combine it with a quote. The quote doesn't even have to be from the same movie or show. Don't worry about copyright. If you use copyright material in your LiveJournal icon, it's open fair common something. Public something.
Don't let other people rip off your icon. You can tell someone has ripped you off because they're using the same image, quote, font or they put the words at the bottom just like you did. This is theft because your icon is trademark copyright all rights reserved you!
Don't go friends-only. If you wanted to say something that only your friends could read, you could e-mail them. No, LiveJournal is your big chance to be noticed; for everyone to see how special you are. You might become an internet celebrity like that one guy that nobody knows about except people on LiveJournal!
Do join communities. LiveJournal has approximately infinity plus one communities, including one for fans of each individual season of The Simpsons. The point of this is not to actually interact with people who share your interests, but so that people who look at your page can understand you without old-fashioned mucking about with conversation and personality.
Don't reject friends. Seriously, unless someone has killed someone you know, or said mean things about you personally, it's best to keep them on your friends list at all times. If you started discriminating, you might be known as the person with only 34 LiveJournal friends, and everyone will know the truth about you.
Do speak in code. Once you have your public journal with loads of friends you don't actually know, you may feel strange about revealing all your inner secrets. The best solution? Hide your daily activities behind vague allusions and song lyrics. Bad: "Me and Henry did Whip-Its in the tool shed until I had to feed the dog." Better: "Boy, I had some fun over the weekend. Let's just say Mom can't make strawberry shortcake for a while." Best: "You don't know how it feels/You don't know how it feels/No, you don't know how it feels to be me."
Do talk trash. Every day on LiveJournal, people are saying incorrect things. Calling them out on this irresponsible opinionating by linking to them is morally correct, ethically responsible and, best of all, might get them to link back to you. Then you can get more of the sweet attention that Mom and Dad are too busy to give you.
Don't limit yourself to LiveJournal. After all, everyone uses LiveJournal, and the only way you can possibly demonstrate that you're above the common herd is to have a journal on a less-crowded domain, like DeadJournal, GreatestJournal, or TooCoolForLiveJournalJournal. It's best to keep your LiveJournal page after you've done this, because if you leave LiveJournal completely the people on LiveJournal won't know that you've left it for someplace better.
Do complain about people on LiveJournal. It's the best way to let people know you're not one of them. |
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| good afternoon, good evening and goodnight just came to mind |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|12:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Adam's desk | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | hungry | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | Hawk Nelson CD Smile It's the End of the World | ] |
so im up in fresno at the moment. got in last night. had dinner with Adam, his mom, his bro Jake, and Jakes friend Reno. i was scared shitless to see his mom again. i just wondered how the meal was gonna go. if she was gonna start asking any personal questions or something. i thought i would have been more comfortable with his dad the storyteller there but Jake took over that role well. hes totally like his dad. hilarity and good times were had by all.
i feel a little bad for leaving bako this week only bcz jit came back on saturday from marines and is on leave. but wats awesome is that he gets another week home! so i have all of next week to hang out with the peeps. awesomeness!! drunken debautchery rules!
im just starting to get excited about knotts berry farm this weekend with the folks. ive been once in my life. i was two. i remember nothing. lol so it will be interesting. a brand new theme park to get aquainted with since fuckin six flags is gettin rid of magic mountain. i felt more comfortable there than ANYWHERE else for some reason. it felt like second home. {until i got to fresno ;-) } i swear everyone has welcomed me so much and ive made kool friends here. ......sometimes i wonder if they just tolerate me bcz im with Adam. i dont think so. i just hope to get closer with all of them over time. :-D
on that note. ive been straying away fromold friends and didnt even realise it. im sorry to all those who have felt betrayed or like i shunned them away. i think im starting a new phase in my life. im happy. im getting my education back on track. i have a man that loves me and i love him. i have wonderful supporting friends. my crap job is going good. (got an email from supervisor's report to his higher people that im the best H.A. in the greater bakersfield area. so thats awesome).
*goes to pray Hawk Nelson - Fourteen* want a rip of this awesome song gimme a call. i always have the Cd with me lol |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 30th, 2006|02:23 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  moody | ] |
just finished watching clerks II. didnt get a chance to see it in theaters (its still out but i dont have the money) so i downloaded it and i must say: its a hilarious and well thought movie. Kevin Smith did a SPECTACULAR job on this one. it is my favorite of his series as well. i need to get to bed now. i have shitty work tomorrow. |
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| who has the best boyfriend ever? ya, i do. |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|12:17 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | outwork ft Mr gee - electro *give this one a download* | ] |
im still in shock. Adam was just here. i told him earlier in the week that bryan was throwing a party tonight. turns out he wasnt. but it didnt stop Adam from coming down here to suprise me! i was over at teh JIT house and sherrie goes outside on the cell talking to someone. wtvr. she comes back in and a few seconds later comes Adam all dresed up in the clothes we shopped for for his work and a dozen red roses in hand. and for like the first 20-30 seconds im like that looks like Adam....*jaw dropped and gawk eyed*...... is that ADAM?? OMFG!!! and then i realise oh i should stop laughing and get up and give him a hug and a kiss (a-man-tuh-hug-and-kiss lolz) but OMG. and we watched shaun of the dead while he clenched to my leg for dear life! we didnt talk a lot but all i wanted was to be near him. put my arm around him. it was wonderful. and he finally got to meet Bryan and Sherrie!! they seemed to like him. shared stories of rob lol. after the movie we watched the logo channel and then he played some wow on Dave's comp. he needed his fix lol. then spent like 20minutes walking him to his jeep where he "picked me up" and drove me around the corner to my car. i so couldnt move myself to get out. i just sat there wishing i could go back to fresno with him. ANYWHERE with him. apparently i also forgot that it was our One Month Anniversary today. he even went and looked at the conversation he had saved of when he asked me and we became official so that he had the date right. I love him.
hopefully ill get paid TOMORROW instead of this tuesday shit. and then head up on monday or something.
I Love You, Adam. |
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| saweeeet |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:08 pm] |
| [ | emotion |
| | headache in the morn | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | eminem - just lose it | ] |
i totally have chip n dale rescue rangers season 1 on dvd!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | Adam's voice | ] |
like, i didnt even have a bad day. but getting home at 530 in the morning and then waking up at 1030. idk. i was coughing more and more today than these past few days. it hurts a lot. im drinking lots and lots of water. i finished my 3 gallon apple juice today as well. but my fucking nose kept going and being dry and itching and this is me bitching if you havent noticed. *siiiigh* clerks finished downloading yesterday while i was gone so i ended up watching it today. i wanted to fall asleep to it in the middle of the day but i ended up watching the whole thing and being bored until dinnertime. watched hells kitchen and was thoroughly entertained. i frippin love that show. kept changing between that and bravo. i do that now - im frippin watching TV nowadays!! wtf?? am i that fuckin bored and w/o a life?? - when i am watching tv, i will go back and forth between wats on bravo and another channel heh. can we say "HOMO"?
but once the show was done, all of a sudden i missed Adam like crazy! and then he txted me just to see wat was giong on. "just watching hells kitchen." and then it was like i just had to pour out my heart to him. i missed him SO much. i am dying to see him. and i frippin have money now!! i CAN go see him but i dont want to go all sick like this and be miserable in front of him. or lindsey. or brianna or everyone else up there. and then today i was looking at the fresno state website and was all imagining myself going there and stuff. but i realised i wanted to go there bcz Adam is there. idk. but just when he called me i felt soo much better. it was like a rush of peace came over me and i was able to smile again. |
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| i have the best boyfriend ever pt 3 |
[Jul. 13th, 2006|12:31 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Adam's bed | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | XM yayy | ] |
i just.... i still dont understand it. how did i get so damn lucky? why does this feel so perfect? i never thought it could be better thanlast time but for some reason i feel ..... spectacular!! its hard to believe how comfortable we are with each other. im metting so many people up here. all his bros and sisters are very kool people. i actually started calling Adam's apartment home heh. second home. it took a while to get comfortable here but it wasnt until i had a talk with Lindsey, his roommate, that i felt a lot better being here when hes away at work. |
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| i have the best boyfriend ever pt 2 |
[Jul. 11th, 2006|07:47 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Adam's bed | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | little headache | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | the loud fan that keeps me up jk lol | ] |
............so i know he likes me. and i know i really like him. we keep being all flirty on myspace and we talk like everyday now on aim about the most random stuff. we started a thing where we just ask each other the most random questions in an effort to learn about each other better. we even started txt messaging each other on occasion and i would call him on skype so that i dont put long distance minutes on my phone and my aunt get pissed. heh i hope she doesnt freak out at the next bill. if i get a call from her soon, ill know wat its about. :-\ but ya, we could talk on the phone for maybe a good hour or two. then one night were on aim with our random questions. i wish i could say our converstation went like this:
adamhagans: would you be my boyfriend?
JDZitro (1:45:49 AM): totally! i would love to
AdamHagans (1:46:04 AM): :-D
but unfortunately it didnt. i wasnt expecting him to ask that at all. bcz i was still thinking about mike so much and wanting him back in my life in a serious relationship. i started hanging out with him again and it was kina the same thing. like i would go over to his house to hang for a while and he would get a call, or he would get distracted by something and forget i was there. he really hurt me in the past but for some reason after months of hurting, i wanted to try again. i thought that he was the best i was going to get. and that i couldnt do any better. i ended up explaining all this in detail to Adam for like an hour before i actually gave the answer above. i realised that mike really hurt me before and that i needed to move on. i gave him chances to pick up where we left off and he didnt take them bcz i guess hes not in a position where he is ready for a relationship right now. right before i gave him my answer tho, i had to tkae myself away from the computer completely and pray about it. i just gave it all to God and asked Him what i should do. He said i need to move on from mike and give Adam a chance bcz hes what i need. we became "official" lol. im soo glad He was there for me to make this decision bcz it was the best decision ive made in a while. i became very happy all the time knowing that someone really really cares about me and is dying to see me!
to be continued...............
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| i have the best boyfriend ever |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|10:32 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | postal service | ] |
so Heather introduces me to this guy. says hes kina in the same situation as me (mike) or something like that and that we could prolly help each other? i dunno. so i start talking with him online and he turns out to be a pretty nice guy and stuff. definately a kool person to talk to. well i start developing this crush on him. like big time! he doesnt know it tho. until this one survey bulletin thingy on myspace thats all like give me 10 random questions and ill be totally honest. and we used it as another way to get to know each other better. well one of his questions said something like do you like me. and i had to admit that i was totally crushing on him. then he started talking to me more and we got to know each other better and better. so he says hes coming down to bako to hang with a couple friends. theyre going to dinner and a movie. did i want to go? Sure! sounds kool. im freaking out nervous bcz im not really sure if its like a date or wat. i didnt end up going to dinner but i met up with them (after waiting like 45 min at the fountain at marketplace and watching ppl freak out at this UBER goth chick of doom who had her face covered in white makeup) and we went to see Cars. it was great. we didnt get to talk much tho. it made me regret not going to dinner with them. and i thought Ok its just a friends thing bcz he didnt try to hold my hand or anything during the movie. not that he didnt put the arm rest down but he didnt try anything at all. lol GOOD TIMES WERE HAD BY ALL! we went and hung out to talk over by starbux for a couple hrs til they kicked us out. when i hugged him gnite i SOO did not want to let go. it felt soo good to be in his arms for some reason.
to be continued..... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 15th, 2006|11:50 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | talking on the phone with Mike | ] |
WHO WANTS TO GO TO THE STREET FAIR?
CALLME ON MY CELL
http://www.bakersfield.com/102/story/57064.html
http://www.bakersfield.com/102/story/56877.html |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 10th, 2006|01:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | meh, i could get out | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | gin blossoms | ] |
woah. sad. i like coke. scr3w petsee.
http://www.bakersfield.com/102/story/56313.html
so THATs where Mike went. sounds boring.
http://www.bakersfield.com/142/story/55579.html
showcase kern yaaay!
http://www.bakersfield.com/619/story/56305.html
it'll prolly go out like JBX. *sheads tear for JBX*
http://www.bakersfield.com/137/story/56276.html
man. its 1.15 and i still havent showered! wats going on today? all i have to do is go over to St francis for my catechumen's (Jack's) rite of acceptance.
as described in my google calendar:
My catechumen, Jack, is making his Rite of Acceptance.
The catechumen seeks to gain the acceptance of the worshipping community.
(The parish community is kool with him wanting to join the church)
He is then blessed by the priest and prayed for by the congregation.
It is for the congregation to know who the catechumens are so they can welcome them, be friendly and pray for them on their journey toward becoming Catholic.
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so ya. thats all i have planned. im free til 4 and then after like 7 or something. |
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| wanna go out but .... I dunno |
[Jun. 7th, 2006|07:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | daft punk - one more time | ] |
GO RAIDERS!!
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When a guy misses you, it doesn't matter because he knows that it won't work
When I guy stares deep into your eyes, he soaks up every second of it because he knows that it probably won't last
When a guy says he's "sorry", he knows that it won't help anything and that he's just wasting breath
When a guy says he "loves you", he doesn't expect anything back because he doesn't want to get his hopes up
When a guy is heartbroken, he does stupid things that he knows he'll regret later...but it still doesn't matter
:::REPOST IF YOU'RE A FREAKIN' LAME-ASS NO-LIFE LOSER WITH NOTHING BETTER TO DO:::
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~hey thats ME!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 1st, 2006|09:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | wants more A&W | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | imogen heap - clear the area | ] |
In the beginning there was nothing. God said, 'Let there be light!' And there was light. There was still nothing, but you could see it a whole lot better. |
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| bored |
[May. 28th, 2006|04:05 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my cave | ] |
| [ | emotion |
| | i wanna Do something | ] |
| [ | the jam |
| | carlos mencia - HBO comedy half hour 1995 | ] |
Mixture
You are 54% a Macho Jock, 22% Pink and Femme, and 51% Scene-Emo | | You are a mixture of the all types of gayness. Nothing stands out in your personality and interests, you will fit in almost anywhere and arent classified by any major stereotypes. |  |
My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 85% on Macho-Jock Gay | | You scored higher than 5% on Pink-Femme Gay | | You scored higher than 61% on Scene-Emo Gay |
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