Current location:	Adam's bed
Current mood:	little headache
Current music:	the loud fan that keeps me up jk lol

i have the best boyfriend ever pt 2
............so i know he likes me. and i know i really like him. we keep being all flirty on myspace and we talk like everyday now on aim about the most random stuff. we started a thing where we just ask each other the most random questions in an effort to learn about each other better. we even started txt messaging each other on occasion and i would call him on skype so that i dont put long distance minutes on my phone and my aunt get pissed. heh i hope she doesnt freak out at the next bill. if i get a call from her soon, ill know wat its about. :-\   but ya, we could talk on the phone for maybe a good hour or two. then one night were on aim with our random questions. i wish i could say our converstation went like this:
adamhagans: would you be my boyfriend?
JDZitro (1:45:49 AM): totally! i would love to
AdamHagans (1:46:04 AM): :-D
but unfortunately it didnt. i wasnt expecting him to ask that at all. bcz i was still thinking about mike so much and wanting him back in my life in a serious relationship. i started hanging out with him again and it was kina the same thing. like i would go over to his house to hang for a while and he would get a call, or he would get distracted by something and forget i was there. he really hurt me in the past but for some reason after months of hurting, i wanted to try again. i thought that he was the best i was going to get. and that i couldnt do any better. i ended up explaining all this in detail to Adam for like an hour before i actually gave the answer above. i realised that mike really hurt me before and that i needed to move on. i gave him chances to pick up where we left off and he didnt take them bcz i guess hes not in a position where he is ready for a relationship right now. right before i gave him my answer tho, i had to tkae myself away from the computer completely and pray about it. i just gave it all to God and asked Him what i should do. He said i need to move on from mike and give Adam a chance bcz hes what i need. we became "official" lol. im soo glad He was there for me to make this decision bcz it was the best decision ive made in a while. i became very happy all the time knowing that someone really really cares about me and is dying to see me!

to be continued...............